Sometimes you just have to do it, one line at a time.

Caution: Don't bother reading the following, it's mostly just stream writing for my own selfish good. I'm not even sure what I mean, so don't read too much into it.. or don't read it at all :)


So I have been digging through multiple geology books, books on the history of the world, books about Colorado plateau fossils, theories on the formation of Grand Canyon and theories on what exactly happened after "The Sun Ignites, The Earth Coalesces".. I've finally got most of it narrowed down to fluid thoughts.. it just all seems so broad, and I can't help but hit that wall called, "WHY?!" Why did the sun ignite, why did the Earth suddenly coalesce and why was there oxygen and hydrogen and where did the organics come from? Does that mean that bacteria and organic matter are floating around in the universe? Well, I'm sure the answer is yes, but why!
Relatively speaking, I think we humans have a very short attention span. The bigger the idea, the more we close the answers up in a little box so to easily explain it without thinking further. Well, God did it, of course! I also think this is connected to why people spend an average of 10minutes gazing from the South Rim out into the vastness, and hours in the restaurants and gift shops. It's just too damn big to really absorb it, getting a stuffed bighorn sheep and a condor puppet is a little more our human speed. The bigger picture is beyond me. I'm not sure if we are really effecting the Earth in the way we think, or if we are just organisms caught up in a bigger cycle, or maybe it's both plus million other inconceivable factors.
Like I said, the bigger picture, the real deal living Earth, creator(s), the big answers to all those whys, that stuff is all beyond me. And then there is that whole huge concept of bringing it all back down to accepting and living in what IS, the present, right now. Geezz.. do wildebeests think about that stuff?