Sunday, August 16, 2009

Apparently I am bad at this blog thing..

Just back from a trip. It was great, the sweetest most hilarious group of creationist Christians I have ever met. They changed my attitude after the first hour, and I knew we were in for a good time. I drove my motorboat into 20 foot waves, laughing the whole way. I love hearing the whole boat scream and laugh for more whitewater after I drop them all into the next hole. That river is the place for me.
Elvis died 32 years ago, and the Elvis tributes on NPR are telling me that there is this whole genre of music that I have missed and want to find. Good old love songs, country and rock, Big Mama Thornton. That's alright mama.
My garden is full of cucumbers, strawberries, blackberries and tomatoes!
Loving every minute of it!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Dreamers aren't so bad

Last night at dinner with my mom, she looked at me and told me that she believed that souls meet long before our physical selves meet. She said that she knew me for years before I was born. She knew she had to be near her dad in California because he ran a fruit stand.
I am starting to feel the molecules around me. I'm not so sure that things are so black and white as we might want. I want to be lucky enough to let this matter travel into the veins of another. Travel up long tree roots and short grass roots and feed flowers. There is energy, a life force that is beyond these simple descriptions of life after death. I am learning to pray.
I'll choose to be a bright shining rainbow in this life and spread love and light into the Earth around me. That's not so bad.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Okay damn it, I'm back.. geesh. I am convinced that if I could just repeat that kind of experience over and over again I would be in a complete bliss state where I'd probably stop growing old and plants would grow when I walked by. I think I would just beam sun. Wow, that one is going to stay with me for a long long time.
The only way I could think to cope with being home was to eat 1lb of strawberries with dark chocolate and take a sea salt bubble bath.
On Saturday I'm going to run Grand Canyon in 5 days.
I'm not ready yet..

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Back down stream.

Alright! Ready to get out there and row a little boat in the big ol Grand Canyon. There is weird energy out there and I am interested to see what she has to teach me this go round. It should be full of beautiful flowers, lots of wind and the same great crew of ravens and ringtails. I am ready to get back down there and remember all the little reasons why Grand Canyon heals my soul. Peace and love.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Sometimes you just have to do it, one line at a time.

Caution: Don't bother reading the following, it's mostly just stream writing for my own selfish good. I'm not even sure what I mean, so don't read too much into it.. or don't read it at all :)

So I have been digging through multiple geology books, books on the history of the world, books about Colorado plateau fossils, theories on the formation of Grand Canyon and theories on what exactly happened after "The Sun Ignites, The Earth Coalesces".. I've finally got most of it narrowed down to fluid thoughts.. it just all seems so broad, and I can't help but hit that wall called, "WHY?!" Why did the sun ignite, why did the Earth suddenly coalesce and why was there oxygen and hydrogen and where did the organics come from? Does that mean that bacteria and organic matter are floating around in the universe? Well, I'm sure the answer is yes, but why!
Relatively speaking, I think we humans have a very short attention span. The bigger the idea, the more we close the answers up in a little box so to easily explain it without thinking further. Well, God did it, of course! I also think this is connected to why people spend an average of 10minutes gazing from the South Rim out into the vastness, and hours in the restaurants and gift shops. It's just too damn big to really absorb it, getting a stuffed bighorn sheep and a condor puppet is a little more our human speed. The bigger picture is beyond me. I'm not sure if we are really effecting the Earth in the way we think, or if we are just organisms caught up in a bigger cycle, or maybe it's both plus million other inconceivable factors.
Like I said, the bigger picture, the real deal living Earth, creator(s), the big answers to all those whys, that stuff is all beyond me. And then there is that whole huge concept of bringing it all back down to accepting and living in what IS, the present, right now. Geezz.. do wildebeests think about that stuff?

Bran muffins are a work in progress, but these are awesome in the meantime!

Okay, so bran muffins turned out dry and freaky, BUT the breakfast bars are delicious! SO here's the recipie..
2 C. Rolled Oats
2 mashed old bananas
1/3C olive oil
2 1/2 C. of nuts and fruits, I used apricots, LOTS of dates, raisens, almonds..
1/2 Flax
1/2 Bran
1 C almond butter
2 tbs honey

Mash the bananas, mix in the honey, almond butter and olive oil, set aside. Mix the oats, flax, bran, fruts & nuts, and cinnamon together, then blend wet and dry ingredients. I personally am a shipwreck in the kitchen(in all the best ways of course!) and rarely measure, never stick to my measurements and mixed the whole kitten in the boodle together at once. That required a whole bunch of mixing and a lot of patience to get an even mixture, so maybe it will save time doing the wet/dry preblend thing. The only important part is to premash the bananas. I oiled a 1/3 C measuring cup and packed it with my mix and made little round breakfast bars, then baked in the oven for 15minutes. These are moist, and stay chewy. Just how I like em!
Oh yeah, and I am certian these are packed with great omega 3's, protein like crazy, and my usual load of fiber of both the soluble and insoluble sorts..

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Bouncing bran makes me so happy!

I thought for a bit after talking with my good friend Erica, not to be confused with Rica, Erika, or Erica, and I decided that creating a blog couldn't hurt. I would inevitably write more, which would be nice, I would inevitably divulge more, which might suck, and it is inevitable that I would spend more time on my blog than cleaning my house, baking cookies, doing laundry, bathing... shit, it's already begun! With that said, I've just finished baking a powerful batch of bran muffins that are so loaded with fiber and flax that they bounce. I also have watered my poor neglected plants, washed the dishes, and got all of my river gear strung from one living room, through the kitchen and into the den. I'm not sure the later is progress exactly, but I think it is better than nothing. Now I'm going to go find the dub Side of the Moon and take a purple glitter fuzzy bubble bath. Welcome to my new space, keep your expectations low, and let your face smile. Don't fret, I'll probably write more tonight, knowing me.